Name: I Still ft Kehlani
Duration: P00H03M36S
Description: Confessions from a not so sober mind.

I Still ft Kehlani

by Van Leeuwen

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Confessions from a not so sober mind.

lyrics

Chorus x2:
I still light up, to get a little higher.
To get up out my feelings.
I'm still drunk and I don't want to hold it, on you.

Bridge:

I ain't supposed to tell you I still love you.
But I just got to tell you I been hurting.
And I can't keep these problems to my self, oh, I still

Verse 1:
Confessions from a not so sober mind.
Still checking my phone like i'm looking for the time.

But if I said that i'm not hoping for a missed call i'd be lying.
But I know its for the best, guess we were meant to cut ties.

Still I, been drinking smoking crazy so my mind been kind of hazy.
Bottling up emotion tryna hold it in on a daily.

But, can't keep it inside.
This ain't me trying to keep it alive or trying revive a relationship that has died.

Cuz in my eyes, you should've know that this is how it would end.
And frankly right now, can't even be your friend.

So please don't take this as an opening, not trying to make amends.
But if it makes you feel better, every night before bed, I still.

Chorus x2:
I still light up, to get a little higher.
To get up out my feelings.
I'm still drunk and I don't want to hold it, on you.

Bridge:

I ain't supposed to tell you I still love you.
But I just got to tell you I been hurting.
And I can't keep these problems to my self, oh, I still

Verse 2:
Tryna make myself remember, how the bad out ways the good.
But every I think of us, it ain't as bad as it was.

Questioning decisions, am I doing whats right?
But you only clipping my wings and I just need to take flight.

Why you got to make me do this shit?
You know I don't wanna go through with it.

You know I wannna make this work as much as you did but the show don't fit.

Gotta do whats right for me, you were selfish in your actions.
All my problems walking past em, now you bout to see how I can be.

Of course, now you wanna make some change like convenience stores.
Give me all the love i've been fiending for and even more? Nah.

That boat sailed for the shore and you ain't riding aboard.
And so I don't feel remorse and keep from visiting the morgue, I still.

Chorus x2:
I still light up, to get a little higher.
To get up out my feelings.
I'm still drunk and I don't want to hold it, on you.

credits

released September 15, 2017
Written by Kehlani and Van Leeuwen
Instrumental by DG Beats
Produced by Van Leeuwen and Co-Produced by Isaiah Tacket
Mixed/Mastered by Van Leeuwen

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Van Leeuwen Pennsylvania

Van Leeuwen is a transitional hip-hop artist, certified audio engineer and producer from Western Pennsylvania bringing his own sound and story to life through music.